The End Of The Mid-Terms

 I'm sorry. I never vote in the mid-terms. I prefer to vote in the primaries. I may have let my party down though. Because the democrats won the mid-terms. But you know what? I don't care. Last week, if you'd have told me the democrats won across the board, I'd have broken down and been the most upset girl you ever saw. Now, I don't care. I have much more on my plate now. I lost my My. I haven't eaten since Sunday morning. I still don't even feel hungry. All I feel is sadness. I just cry less and less each day. Right now, my sadness for losing Mya overtakes all other feelings. I want her back so bad! I feel so terrible for what happened to her. I'm not sure I'll ever really get over that! She was my #1 baby. She was my strength, my everything. She was my reason for getting up in the mornings. I love Ele, but Mya was with me so much longer, and I promised her I'd never let anything bad happen to her. Then this had to happen, and I couldn't save her. I never want to get up again. That's how I feel.

I will admit I was not exactly pleased with Trump's second term. I'd have been a much happier voter if that Iran war hadn't have happened. But I also remember that Trump did not start that war. It started under Biden. But as bad as Trump's second term is, I just cannot help but feel worse that now democrats are going to take over. I guess it could be worse. I could be living in New York, or Michigan. Al-Sayed won Michigan, another damn islamic governor! People on the left say he's just a muslim, but he's not. He sympathizes with terrorists, so he's an islamist. That's bad news. It seems all the blue states now are going to vote islam terrorist sympathizers into office. That is not good for our country. They don't believe us when we say islam is not compatible with our culture. Do these dummycrats even realize all the things they've been battling over the last 15 years or so will be ruined if every state elected an islam governor?? Women would soon lose all rights. Trans people won't be allowed to exist at all. Neither will gays. They will make it legal to rape women. Women won't be able to leave the house without a man present. I don't have a man, and I don't want one! How am I going to be able to leave the house without worrying if I'm going to be stoned to death???

All this, and it's believed the reason is because of the high gas prices. Most people are saying that. Well, I heard one person say that was only part of it. Promises made, and promises not kept is another factor. I never agreed with the war. That was one thing I strongly disagreed with Trump on. It really should have stopped when Trump killed the Iranian leader. That was a good thing. But keeping this war going on like this is not what I asked for. It's because of the war that our prices have gone up. Especially with gas and food. No one is perfect, and I realize these things take time. But so far, nothing much has been done. I'm not happy. I won't say I regret voting for Trump, I do love the deportations and the policies, but I've been more disappointed in Trump than I've let on. This term is nothing like his first term was. But then it was the same with Obama too. I don't hate Trump. I'm just disappointed in him this term.

But again, I have other things on my mind. One of my former Facebook buds, I had to let her go today. She posted anti-Trump memes that also attack the people who voted for him. One said "Trump did not win because he is a genius. He won because you are an idiot". I got rough with her. Since losing Mya, I've been in no mood to look at negativity. I told her off! I went to her Facebook page and noticed she posts nothing but negativity! I don't feel like having someone like that as my Facebook friend right now, so I deleted her from my friends. I always hate to do that. But I'm just not in the mood to get in to the leftist vs. right-winger feud now!

For 2 days, not only have I not eaten, but I've not turned on the TV, or listened to music, or do much more than lie down on my bed and feel miserable. It's all I feel like doing. But last night, I had some trouble falling asleep, so I turned the TV on and started watching some videos. And this morning, I started working on my AI images for Metazoica now. I'm down to the last family for the Meet The Mammals section of the website. I don't work on the images like I did before losing Mya, I work on them as long as I feel like it. That's it. Then I go back to lying on my bed and feeling miserable again. So, this may take a while to complete. But I will get it done. I am so close to finishing now, I can't let myself stop. Just do as much as I can when I can, and it'll get done when it gets done. I still have not eaten since Sunday morning. I just don't feel hunger like I did before. It still feels like my belly is tied in knots. I'm sure I'll get over it soon, I just don't know when soon. But I do try to stay hydrated.

Breaking Up The Family

 Well, day 2 of mourning for my My, I still have not eaten. Though I am trying to remember to keep myself hydrated, so I take a sip or two of water now and then. I can go a while without eating, but I must remember to drink. I still miss my baby! But I still have not gotten over the shock of her just not being here anymore. I got so dehydrated yesterday from constant crying, I have no more tears today. But the sadness is still there. I haven't even been able to manage a full smile since Mya passed. I still feel this big void in my soul, like a big part of me is gone. My belly is still in knots, which is why I can't eat. The one thing that hurts me the most is knowing how easily Mya's accident could have been prevented. It's like my worst nightmare come true. I'm already looking at other puppies and I shouldn't. I need to give myself time to heal. If I just rush in and get another puppy, I will regret it later, and surely the baby will too. Because I'd still be trying to get used to Mya not being here. I need to detach before getting another dog. Otherwise I just won't love it the same.

There is another someone in the family who is breaking us up. My stepfather John. Apparently last year, when mama was visiting us, she got into a bad accident of her own. She's still trying to relearn to walk. And that is what bothers John. Mama once told me John is very uncomfortable around handicapped people. Even though he should know ma very well by now, and they've been married for 33 years, and now he all of a sudden decides he doesn't love her anymore because she was in an accident. It's just very sad. When a person marries another, it's supposed to be for better or worse, for as long as you both shall live. John seems to have misread that rule, or didn't completely understand it. While my ma was recovering in a hospital, John had already found himself another squeeze online! When I first heard that, I thought "What a jerk!" But then I remembered how ma said that John did not feel comfortable around handicapped people. John has always been somewhat strange. It's strange I should say that, because I have a few things in common with him. We're both pickier eaters than a koala. We're both old and love 80s music.

Recently, John has been having days-long episodes of the runs, and has gotten worried about it. He asks ma what he should do about it. Ma's response has been funny. She said "What does your main squeeze tell you you should do?" That frustrates John! Ma said John being sick now, it's not her problem anymore. It was when they were married, but now that John wants to break up with ma, it's not her problem anymore. She told him to ask his new girlfriend. Well, I heard from ma, who heard it from a neighbor that John is planning to leave ma after the holidays. Ma told him to go ahead, and pray that his new girlfriend can support him, because she plans to hit him up good with alimony. John said at first "No, you can't do that". Ma said "Oh yeah? Just watch me!" She said John fell silent then. She may not be able to make him love her again, but she's sure planning to make him sorry he ever left her, because she was always a good wife to him. She didn't do anything to end this marriage, it was all John's doing from the beginning. I lost a lot of respect for John. He was the only father I still have, and he's leaving now.

I've been telling ma that I hope John moves in with his new girlfriend, and is so miserable there that he comes back and begs ma to marry him again. But ma already has stated, she doesn't want him back. I can't blame her. Finding out John does not take his promise to GOD seriously. He's going to Hell for this. John is little more than a fair-weather friend. I can't stand those kind of people. I've dealt with them plenty of times before. I'm sick of them!

I sure wish my ma lived closer, we all need each other now. My sis even suggested last night that we go to stay with ma for a few days. I like the idea, but I just can't. Ma's afraid of Ele. And what would I do with my birds? And John would surely have a hissy fit if he had to live with 2 dogs and birds. I don't want to put ma through that. So, I cannot go. All I can do is just stay here and try to get over this terrible sadness that has overtaken me. Looking around my bedroom last night before I went to bed, I realized this place is just too full of memories. Mya's bed is still where it's always been. Mya's food and water dishes are still here. Mya's new crate is still here, and she still has a full bag of dog food that hasn't even been opened. Looking at these things reminds me too much of her being gone. If I could move out today, I would. But I can't. I'd have no place to go. I was wishing last night that life were like being on a computer, that I could just click the Undo button and everything from the day would be undone. Then I'd still have Mya. But that's why the saying "Life is unfair" exists. Because it can't be undone. I don't know how long my belly will stay in knots. I can't even feel hunger it's self. It's been blocked. I'll just have to wait until I feel hungry again to eat and try as hard as I can to drink lots of water and stay hydrated.

When I do get another dog, and I do plan to some time in the future, I don't know if I'll go with another sheltie. Mya was so much fun, but I fear there will never be another one like her. I've been thinking of some other breeds, even getting another australian shepherd. A male, for Ele. But she may see him only as a child. Not as a mate.

RIP Mya (3/16/17 ~ 11/1/26)

 I am in mourning now. I lost my My. She got into a very bad accident, and we rushed to the hospital. The nearest emergency vet is 45 minutes away, but we rushed over there anyways. I was crying the whole way down there. I told the vet to do what she could to save Mya. It eventually got to a point where the vet said Mya would not make it and if she did, she wouldn't have a good quality of life. So my sis and I talked it over, and came to the conclusion that I could not let Mya suffer like that. Hearing her screams in the emergency room was painful enough. While we were there, we phoned ma to tell her the bad news. Mya loved her grandmama. Even mama was crying, we let her talk to Mya one more time over the phone, I couldn't do much more than tearfully ask for a group hug.

Mya sure was a tough ol' gal! It took 2.5 doses of the euthanasia medicine to get her to go to sleep. The only thing I am grateful for is she is no longer suffering in pain. Whenever I lose a pet, or a family member (of which Mya was both), the one thing I feel is loneliness. Loneliness and isolation. And this is the time I hate having these feelings. I thank GOD my sis is here because I know I couldn't have handled this alone. Losing a pet makes me feel like I'm the only person in the world who has ever lost a pet. Even though I know I'm not. It just feels like it. Which is why I feel so alone and isolated, even though I'm not alone.

I told this to all my buds on Facebook. They sent me condolences. But even knowing I did what's right for Mya, still it doesn't take away any of the melancholy I feel. As a dog, Mya was the best! She actually felt like I had another person around. She was that smart. She was the first sheltie I ever had. I came close a couple times back in 1999. But I turned them down. Partially because of what happened to grandma. She broke her hip within that time, and needed 24-hour care, so we were busy with that, and I didn't get a sheltie. I had my eye on a couple of good ones too. They later grew to become show dogs. To be honest, before I got Mya, I wasn't sure I could handle having a sheltie. But I wanted to give one a try and so I got Mya. I fell in love with her. I'm glad I got her too. And these last 9 (almost 10) years with her have been the most fulfilling years of my life! I loved that baby with all my heart and soul. Coming home without her for the first time since 2022, felt strange. But at least in 2022, I knew I would be getting her back again. Although it was touch and go there for a bit. Long story.

I still remember when I first got her. In fact, I wrote about it on this blog the day she was born! I was so excited to be getting her, I couldn't even really wait until she was weaned. But I had to. That just made the day I got her even more exciting! Part of the reason I got her was for therapy, for me. I had just lost my father a few months before, then the turmoil I had with the INXS fans on Facebook. I said I didn't want to go into any more groups until I got a puppy. That was Mya. She helped a lot! Even though I try to keep contact with INXS fans down to a slim minimum. That's why to this day, I only have the very best of the best of INXS fans among my Facebook friends. I still have the video up that I did when she turned 1 year old. Right now though, I cannot look at anymore pics or videos of Mya without crying my eyes out. It's too soon. But now she's gone and we miss her so much! I haven't even eaten today. I can't. My belly feels like it's tied up in knots. My heart is broken, as is my spirit.

The weird thing about all this is, I'd been having a feeling, all weekend long, that something horrible was going to happen. It all started with a dream I had on Friday. Or maybe it was Thursday. It was some time towards the end of the week. I even woke up and said "I hope this isn't a bad omen!" I never would have dreamed Mya would be the one the horrible event would happen to! I don't know why I had that feeling, and I had no clue who would be the one the dream was telling me about, or what was going to happen. I just knew though that something horrible was going to happen. Now I miss my girl. I actually feel like part of me is gone now! And I've felt that way ever since the vet took Mya's body to be disposed of. And here I am, left with some memories, some bits of hair, and a miserable feeling. Just me and Ele now. I wish it didn't have to be this way. But the best way I can put it now is I guess that's just how the cards fall.

Our Father, who art in heaven,
Hallowed be thy Name.
Thy kingdom come,
Thy will be done,
On earth as it is in heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread.
And forgive us our trespasses,
As we forgive those who trespass against us.
And lead us not into temptation,
But deliver us from evil.
For thine is the kingdom, and the power, and the glory,
For ever and ever. Amen.

Fun With AI

 I've been having loads of fun with AI. When it actually does what I want it to do, it's more than FUN!!!!! But sometimes it doesn't do what I want it to do, and the results can be downright hilarious!!! For example, I've asked for a rat with monkey-like hands, and it'll give me a picture of a norway rat (Rattus norvegicus) with hands like a macaque monkey, and the hands would be HUGE!! A lot larger than the proportions of a normal rat. Then I have to tell it to make the hands more proportionate to the body of the rat, and I guess it doesn't understand that, so it'll change the rat's head into a monkey's head, and so on and so forth. But I'd rather use the AI feature than not. It's making my work in Metazoica go much faster. Now, I only have 3 more families to complete for the Meet The Mammals section and I'll be ALL done!!! Two of them are rodent families, and one is a flightless bat family.

However, sometimes AI's mistakes work for me, and I like them and I keep them. There's been several examples of that throughout the Metazoic website, which you will see when I finally make the complete switch from 2D to 3D drawings in the near future. Most of the time, I like using AI because it actually improves my drawings. And I don't even have to put in much effort. As long as the AI engine cooperates. For example, here's my 2D drawing of Davy, the little fawn who got his start in Gracie's Odyssey...

That's a drawing I did myself, with pen and ink. He looks just like a fawn should, even though he's not a deer fawn. AI tends to see him that way though. Now here he is again, through AI...

AI did not change much, except he's supposed to have like a doggie tag on his collar, and instead AI put a bell. Also, as you can see, he doesn't have spots on his backside, and he should. But you can see, AI put more detail in this picture than I ever could! I can never put that much detail in any of my drawings! My drawings are more inspired by 1940s style cartoons than from realism, which is why I am trying to do Metazoica all over again! Cartoony drawings are not good for scientific-style illustrations. It gives a false impression. Though they are great for stories! But some pics actually come out better, like this one of Aerobates, a tiny Metazoic flying fox that lives like modern hummingbirds...

Not only did AI add more detail to the animal it's self, it also added more detail to the background. I don't ever have time to do extravagant backgrounds like this, so that's what AI adds to my pics. I only do extravagant details like this if I am being paid for it, because they take forever! Therefore, I'd have to charge more for the pic. But AI can do it great! And in seconds! Sometimes AI mistakes can even look great! This is a throw-away pic AI did on it's own...

That's Davy again, the baby fawn. This pic is supposed to be him sitting on a stool in front of a window, crying for his mama. Well, AI got him right, and the stool right, but forgot the window! Instead, he's just sitting there, looking up at the stars in what appears to be a grassy field. I did not ask for this pic, but AI created it anyway. It was too good to throw away, so I kept it anyways. I can't use it in the story, but I can keep it pinned up near my desk, just because I think it looks good. I got several of these AI images that I did just for the hell of it, that I pinned up in my room. It's a testament to how much I really enjoy AI, and the beautiful job it does with my drawings. Even though in a way, it makes me look lazy asf! And this here is my most favorite pic of all...

That's supposed to be me, holding Hutchess. Back when I was younger and skinnier! Hutchess was the cattle dog puppy I only got to enjoy for a week back in 1998. A week after I got her, she fell prey to the parvo epidemic that swept Washington State like a plague in the night! I wrote this story, called Hutchess: A Picture Diary, as a way to cope with the immense pain I endured losing Hutchess. So, this is my favorite pic, out of ALL the pics I've done for these stories. I only have one pic of Hutchess that I took before she fell ill...

That was taken by me, in our old yard in Toutle, WA. Shortly before she died of parvo. She was lively and active as any cattle dog pup is! I miss her a lot! I want another cattle dog. I wanna try and go for having one again. A neighbor here has a cattle dog. But I don't think it's an Australian cattle dog. I think it's one of those Stumpy-tailed cattle dogs, because it doesn't have a tail. It's not the same. Hutchess was a true Australian cattle dog, undocked and everything! And Hutchess was the perfect name for her. I only have this one pic of her. I'm not the best photographer, and the other pics I have of her are not as good as this one. I was hoping to start a scrap book of her. But GOD had other plans for her.

Promises, Promises

 So, as I understand it, Trump has agreed to give $5,000 dividend checks to all Americans. He has said this multiple times ever since he campaigned for the 2024 election. And I say the same thing I've said every time we were promised the money; "I'll believe it when I actually see it in my bank account". From what I've heard though, Trump did promise that, but the democrats keep blocking it. Well, I've actually heard conflicting reports of that, so I cannot say for sure it's true or not. I'll just have to look it up and consider the source. Leftist media lies all the time about Trump. I have actually heard them do it. That's why it's hard for leftists to convince me Trump is all bad. I don't trust leftist media. Every time I hear a leftist quoting their media source, the first thing that comes to my mind is "so what happened before he said that?" Because leftists would never know that. Their media sources take out the things that would make Trump sound good, and only play the bits and pieces of his speech that would make him sound creepy if you didn't know the full context. That's why I always say context is important!

A perfect example of that is the leftists thinking that Trump said he would date his own daughter. I never saw the leftist's version of that clip, but I have the feeling the leftist media made it sound like Donald Trump did say he'd date Ivanka. So that's one reason they think Trump is a pedophile, and incestuous person. They think, as president, Trump should not even kid about stuff like that. I know Trump jokes around about a lot of things. I've watched interviews with people who have actually spoken to Trump himself, and people who have known him for years. They all say the way the leftist media portrays him is untrue. I tend to believe those people because, given the choice to lie, they choose not to.

That's another thing. A few women have claimed that Trump raped them, when in fact, he didn't. I don't believe E. Jean Caroll at all. She got a big pay-out for basically lying about Trump. A lot of people are always accusing such luminaries of things like that. I totally believe E. Jean Caroll was one of those who did. The more famous someone is, the more people will line up to accuse them of unscrupulous acts. Look at Michael Jackson. A lot of kids have said Michael Jackson was a creep who liked to have sex with kids. While others have said that isn't true. But I will tell you one thing I think; I'm pretty sure McCauley Culkin was a LOT more than a godfather to MJ's children! But I never did believe E. Jean Caroll when she accused Trump of raping her. I never believed her, and I never will believe her. She just seemed a bit too happy about getting those millions from Trump in that settlement.

I was watching a video early this morning (when I wasn't working on the AI images), and this young woman was debating with this man, named Cam Higby, the young woman rolled out every leftist media talking point known to man, and when Cam Higby corrected her with facts, she kept saying "I don't agree with you" or she would bring up some other talking point the leftists always use to make Trump look worse than he really is. For example, she asked what would make Cam believe that Trump is a rapist and a pedophile. Her mind was already set that he is, just like ALL leftists. He told her he'd have to see hard evidence that he did. Videos, pictures, testimony from other unbiased people who were there, that's a start. That's what I say too.

Some people just have it fixed in their mind that Trump is a child molester and a rapist. There seems to be no swaying them of that either. But there's been no proof he did it. You know what's funny about that? The leftists will believe Trump is a child molester with nothing more than possible circumstantial evidence (ie. the redacted Epstein files), which doesn't prove anything, but they will not believe that allowing men into womens' spaces will lead to rape, even though there have been cases of that happening. Remember the sexual molester who was in a men's prison, that claimed to be a trans-"woman"? He wanted to be transferred to a women's prison, and he was. And once he got there, he raped and molested like 3 women, and even got one pregnant. Leftists will say things like that are not happening, or are unlikely to happen. But they totally believe blacked-out Epstein files prove, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that Trump raped children. Trump did not even want the redacted files released. He wanted ALL the files released. Yet the leftists think that because a lot of things in the files were blacked out, that it proves Trump is guilty. I say it doesn't prove anything. Leftists just always want to believe nothing but the worst about Trump.

As for men in womens' spaces, I don't care whether it happens often or not that a so-called trans-"woman" is raping real women. One is too many! And there have been well more than just that one incident than the one in the women's prison! Yes, I understand there are heterosexual rapists out there too. But they are not all pretending to be women just to get into womens' spaces. And now Biden made it a rule that if a man says he's a woman, then he can go freely into womens' spaces. So, all a man has to say is he's a woman to gain access to womens' bathrooms and locker rooms. Just like I can say I'm 10 years old to get free admission to the zoo, or ride a bus at half price, or I can say I'm half black to get a black person's scholarship. That's basically how that works. It's all the same. And it shouldn't work that way! A man should not be able to just say "I identify as a woman" and just be let into womens' spaces. He should have to provide more proof than long hair, a dress and make-up. He should have to provide reports from doctors and therapists, and any other proof they have.

I remember a video Charlie Kirk did where he asked a student "can I be a black man?" the answer was no. Of course he couldn't. But what got me about that video was there was a young, black college girl, and she flew absolutely off the handle! Calling Charlie "racist" just for bringing that up! All Charlie was doing was trying to make a point, if a man can become a woman, why can't someone somewhere down the line say they identify as a black person, just to get into black spaces? It's the same logic as a man just saying he's a woman to get into women's spaces, and it should not happen. I personally, don't give a shit enough to gain access to black only spaces. Black people used to be fun! They had a lot of personality back before the days of Obama. I don't care to go into their spaces now. I don't care to hear how miserable they are that the world is "racist", when it has nothing to do with race! It's got everything to do with their attitudes.

White College Students Attacked by Black Mob

 

This picture shows a mob of young black people attacking white college students at the student house near York College campus. So far, I haven't heard much in the way of details about this attack, one podcaster said this started because several black people over the past few days have been found "lynched to death". But I don't think that's true, because the black people they thought had been lynched, had actually committed suicide. That was the official findings. But apparently, this started due to an exchange of words. I'm pretty sure the white girls did not start the altercation. They almost never do. It's usually started by the black kids. That's been my experience anyway. Especially in the case of black leftist women (and girls). They just cannot let things go. They always have to show off their displays of power by beating up white people.

Now, as I have said before, I know not all black people are like this. It's not all of them, but it is always them, especially lately. This racial bullshit is getting out of hand! Lately, black people have not been doing much to endear themselves to Americans. I'm beginning to believe Charlie Kirk was right. Maybe black people were better off during the days of slavery and Jim Crowe. When Charlie Kirk said that, he was talking that black people were more civilized and human back then. There were, more often than not, fathers in the family, and the mothers stayed at home and took care of the kids. Much better than they do now! Speaking of which, you see that woman in the center picture? Well, she said she was offended by the word "uncivilized" at a town meeting. This is what the Law Enforcement group on Facebook said about the meeting...

On the 300 block of West Jackson Street near York College, female students sitting on their rental porch asked a street-race crowd to get off the property. One victim told FOX43, "I turn and see my friend get dragged by her hair down our porch steps and disappear."

Another said she was hauled to a stop sign and kicked by about a dozen people at once, then blacked out from a kick to the ribs and a blow to the head while a circle filmed her.

Three juvenile girls now face charges that include felony riot and simple assault.

Then came the civic seminar. A resident on camera said, "To me, that feels like you're saying that the juveniles in this incident are uncivilized, and I am personally offended by that analogy." She then started assigning blame to the victims, asking what the college would do to put in check the off-campus students.

The worst thing about all this, the white students (and some neighbors) called 911, and were told the police were on their way. They never showed up. This is the world the leftists want for us. One of the main reasons why I let that kid come in here and comment as long as I did was because I wanted everyone to see the leftists' tactics. They want us afraid and dead. And they announce that behind the mask of being "compassionate". When it comes to leftists though, there is no such thing as compassion. I'm sure little mister Gray Stanback saw that video and laughed, and cheered for the black people attacking. Probably said the white students deserved it. If so, then I hope this happens to him someday, and he gets the same result as those students did. Maybe then, he will learn something about compassion. Until then, may he get caught in a field of quicksand and not be able to get out. May he never know a moment's peace. And may his fly always be open.

Anyway, this is the response from law enforcement to this woman...

Excuse me, are we talking about the students who called 911 while getting stomped? We could think of a lot more words to use than “uncivilized” when it comes to these miscreants.

Personally, I don't give a shit if the word "uncivilized" offended that woman. I got some names I can use myself to describe the people attacking those students, starting with the word animals, and going right down to wretch! And I don't even really want to call them animals. Animals at least, can learn how to behave. That woman was lucky I wasn't at that meeting. I'd have offended her at every turn! And when she would bring up how we should not call those evildoers "uncivilized", I would have told her "I don't give a shit if you are offended!" I don't play that game. And I don't have any feelings for criminals.

In other news, I've been having fun with AI lately. I've been making some of the pics I put up on Metazoica more realistic looking. Particularly the families I didn't really want to work on. But doing them in AI made working on them fun! Like the family Volacostidae. Those are actually hard to draw, because of the wings that protrude from the ribs. They're supposed to be designed like the modern flying lizards of Indonesia (Genus: Draco). I tried to get AI to create a video of one of them gliding like the flying lizards. But it's hard, and I've tried everything in AI. This is what I get...

It's not supposed to sprout bat-like wings and fly!!! The projections from the ribs open up and the animal glides through the trees. Like this...

And no matter what I ask AI, I just cannot get it to replicate that! But I am still just learning how to communicate with AI to get it to do what I want. The clips show the animals in motion, and they're only a few seconds long. Someday, I do hope to get into that program that allows me to make movies using AI. Full-length movies for Metazoica and UMG Productions!

A Real American Hero

 I know this is late, but I was busy on the 10th, so I made this Charlie Kirk Week. The leftists have their own name for it. They call it a "Kirkiversary". I was watching a video of them laughing and celebrating. I even saw a white-haired simp say something to the effect that he's going to have a barbecue. He said "If you felt sad for Charlie Kirk, or you're calling him a hero, then you're not invited to my party!" I said "I don't want to go to your dumb ol' party anyway!" Who knows what he'd be barbecuing. Probably found a way to barbecue soy leaves. No thank you! I'm not interested. I'll have a party of my own. I made a cake. An orange sunshine cake. It came out good too!

Yes, I am having a "Kirkiversary" of my own. But it's not like the kind the leftists would think of. I'm celebrating Charlie's LIFE. Just like I celebrate my father's life. Just like I celebrate Michael's life. I'm celebrating what he did with his life, I'm celebrating his courage, I'm celebrating what he brought to this world, I'm celebrating his family. That is how I celebrate. If the leftist black congress people can believe a stupid thing like some dumbass thug died for them, then I can believe Charlie Kirk died for us. For America. For free speech. That is how I celebrate him.

I remember when my sis first told me the news that Charlie Kirk got shot, I couldn't believe it. I hoped it wasn't true, or I hoped he'd pull out of it. But then my sis listened to a podcast and found out that Charlie died. When she told me, I was so stunned, I almost fainted. I thought it couldn't be possible. But indeed it was. I hated it. I hated the leftists because I just knew one of them did it! And I knew the reason had to be because he spoke out against trans people. Don't ask me how I knew that. Some primordial instinct inside me just said that was the reason he was killed. This was before I knew anything other than Charlie Kirk had been shot. I had no details of what happened, where or how. All I knew when I thought that was it had to be by some radical trans activist. I don't remember if it was later that same day or two days later, that was when I finally found out my instincts were right. It was a radical trans activist. Even with Candace Owens confusing the whole plot by saying Israel did it. I didn't believe her. This whole Israel thing seems to have driven Candace a little mad. I feel sorry for her kids now. Including the one growing inside her. Who'd have known their mama is a dumbass!? And I never thought I'd be saying that about Candace Owens. I used to like her. A lot! But yeah, she's gone crazy now.

When I heard there had been a statue of Charlie Kirk put up, you couldn't have chiseled the smile off my face! I was so happy! I want to go see it! But wouldn't you know it? The leftists have already desecrated it!

This is another thing I just knew would happen if there was ever a Charlie Kirk statue created! I knew the leftists would make markings on it like this. I know leftists pretty well! Especially the marking on his neck, in the area he was struck. But hey! I still love the statue. I think it looks great! I always said if I ever see the statue of George Floyd, I'm gonna smear my dogs' shit all over it! At least it'd be the same color he was. And it's fitting too. George Floyd was nothing but a nasty, shitty thug. I won't say he deserved to die, but what good did he bring to this world? None. At least Charlie Kirk stood up for a right we all have, the right of free speech. He was a better person than I am! I had to shut off commenting on this blog. I didn't like doing that, but this little shit who kept commenting here, just cannot take a hint.

It wasn't until a few days later, when Ericka Kirk told the world that her daughter went to bed one night and asked where her father was, that finally broke me. I cried like a fountain! Then my dog Ele did something amazing! She understood me and how sad I felt. She heard me sniffling and immediately came and put her paw on me and laid her head in my lap. I never knew Ele was sentimental like that. See why I love animals more than people! Leftists would laugh at me crying over something like that. But not my dogs. Ele actually understood how I felt. That was unexpected! But a welcome act of love. I got closer to Ele that day. I don't even like kids that much. I've never been good with kids. When they talk, to me it all sounds like gobbledygook. So, I'm uncomfortable around kids. Even when I was a kid. But I can still feel for Charlie Kirk's kids. And I do. They should not have lost their father like that. It's especially sad they were so young when it happened. At least when I lost my father, I was in my 40s and I grew up with him, I got to do things with him. But now, Charlie Kirk's kids will never know that. They'll never get to grow up doing those kinds of things with their father. And that made me sad.

And the leftist democrats, the so-called "party of love, compassion and tolerance", think Charlie Kirk's murder was funny. Well, it's not! And I'm not just saying that because he stood up for free speech, or because he was a right-wing Trump supporter, or because he was a Christian. I'm saying that because he never hurt anyone! Ever! All he did was talk to people, which is something someone in his position should do! He was a good person who did nothing to deserve what he got. I never met the man, but I have keen instincts on the way people are. No matter how they try to hide it. I could tell Charlie Kirk was a good person. He always treated people with respect. Even if they shit-talked him. That's how I could tell he was good. I always heard if you really want to know how good or bad a person is, listen to how they talk about people who disrespect them. Remembering that, I will say Charlie Kirk was a much better person than the leftists who are celebrating his death. Of course, the leftists make up things Charlie Kirk said about them. They think he was a bigot, a transphobe, a racist. But that all comes from the leftist media taking words out of Charlie Kirk's mouth, or editing out the parts that make him sound good.

The leftists always brag about how good and compassionate they are. Then they make fun of Charlie Kirk being killed. Not only that, but I heard Mamdani and AOC were laughing and joking around at the 9/11 memorial ceremony, as the victims' names were being read. That's why no one wanted Mamdani there. And some dumb leftist democrat congress women got up on stage and actually said they send condolences to the families and friends of the stupid hijackers!!!! That, to me, was totally disrespectful! They said nothing to the families and friends of the innocent victims who were killed because some stupid terrorists had a hatred for America. At least Trump has the decency to remember the innocent civilians who lost their lives that day! And no, I don't believe he did that for his own benefit. That's what leftists say every time Trump does something good.

I Finally Got Them!

 I finally got my first set of softbills in my collection. These are just my first, there will be many more to come! I already missed a sale where I could get blue-gray tanagers. But I will catch the next one, and I am ready! But for now, my first softbills are this pair of Venezuelan Troupials. I love these guys too! They are so cool-looking! So far, one of my favorite birds in my collection.

These are in the same family as blackbirds, like the red-winged blackbirds, whose song, IMO, announces the beginning of spring in marshy areas. They are also in the same family as what I call "Walmart birds", because I see them all the time at Walmart parking lots, wandering around looking for scraps. Their real name is Brewer's blackbirds

Like I said, this is just the beginning. I plan to get some different kinds of tanagers as well, like paradise tanagers. That's the one I am REALLY looking forward to getting!

And sooner or later down the road, IF I can find some, I want to get some more pekin robins again

I remember having some of these back when I had my first bird collection back in 1992. I bought them at a pet store that I used to visit a lot. They were actually quite common back then. I knew of 3 other pet stores that carried them. Now, I can't even find a breeder in this country! I know that's a lot of space between 1992 and 2026, but I wonder what happened. Why can't I find them anymore?

Ya know that same pet store, I recently heard, keeps their birds in dirty cages. But at this point, I don't care!!!! If I can find more of any birds I want, I'm gonna get it! I'll just say it's a rescue. I used to go there a lot! It's the pet store in Des Moines, near Kent. They also used to sell all kinds of exotic reptiles and amphibians. I used to go there a lot for some day geckos. That's another species that is hard to find! Nowadays, all most pet stores (and even breeders) have in day geckos are the larger day geckos. And I myself, prefer the smaller ones, like peacock and gold dust day geckos. I've even found one breeder of neon day geckos! But only one. No other breeders I know carries those. It's such a shame! Back when we had more pet stores, I could find almost anything! Now that most of them are gone, I don't see much of anything anymore! And that sucks! Because breeders are not easy to find! Not if you want a specific variety of bird or day gecko.

A lot of the birds I used to have in my first bird collection came from pet stores, and I had some back then I have never been able to find again! Nowadays, if you are lucky to find a pet store that carries birds, most of them are conures. Not that that is a bad thing. I'd love to have a hand-tamed sun conure! And the smaller birds they have are usually zebra and society finches. No one carries exotic finches anymore. For all this, I blame the ARAs. They SUCK! I mean, I love animals, but I'm not a crazy animal rights activist! I'm actually not an activist for anything. In order to be an activist, you have to be a radical, and I hate radicals!

My sis says I should breed birds. Well, that would be nice, I could put all these birds I got to good use. But that's not why I got them. To me, birds are like living decorations. I feed them and keep them watered, and once a week I clean their cages, and I love to sit back and watch them frolic around in their cages and listen to their little songs and calls. To me, that is fun on a boring afternoon. I have birds because I like them. I wish more varieties were available here in the USA. I found someone who has birds of paradise!! Now that would be like the top of the mountain for me! That's the ultimate prize! But I bet they cost thousands of dollars.

Well, in other news I had to shut off comments here. I'm not angry nor nothing, but I am sick of this kid who keeps commenting. I'm used to him by now, but I'm just sick and tired of him. This time, I don't see me allowing anonymous comments at any time in the foreseeable future. Just like all other leftists, if he doesn't get his way, he gets pissy. I don't need that. This is why I totally disagreed with Clinton making it illegal to spank your children. I knew in the long run, it was going to create miscreants like this kid. I look at what he writes, and I think "If I had talked to an older woman the way he talks to me, my ma would have slapped me to the middle of next year!" That's the way I was brought up. Being naturally from the south, my ma taught my sis and me some manners. It's a shame Gray Stanback's mama didn't do the same with him.

But I really cannot say nothing. I was like him when I was his age. Everyone who disagreed with me, I thought was against me. It took me a long time to realize that just because someone disagrees with me, that it's not a personal attack on me. It's just them being who they are, and thinking what they do. I can disagree with someone and still be friends with them. Leftists can't. But I can. And I sure don't want to be like any leftists!

As I have said on here many times before, I'm all for people living their lives however they want. As long as it doesn't infringe on someone else's rights. And I'm a very modest woman. I won't go into a locker room if there is a man swinging his junk all around at everyone! I do not, and will not, ever see trans "women" as being real women. No way! Because they're not. To say they are, is a lie. I won't stoop that low for anyone. I don't care if I did used to like them. Not gonna happen!

He said I was a coward for not accepting his notion that trans "women" are women. I told him, no, it would be cowardly of me to agree with him and say they are, when I know they're not. That would be me giving in to leftist's lies, when I know they are lies. Bravery is sticking to your values, even when you know they might enrage the opposition. Cowardice is changing your point of view just to appease the opposition. I won't do that! He asked me what would it take for him to make me believe trans "women" are real women. I told him an act of GOD. But GOD has nothing to do with trans people. That's Satan's doing. This is his world now. Ever since Obama. Stanback said he'd do anything. I thought about that, and thought about that and I finally said no. There's nothing he can do. 

I was going to play it safe and say "Would you promise to move on, leave me alone and never come back if I said what you want me to say?" But I figured even then, he wouldn't do it. His ego is too big. That's why he keeps coming back here. He's not worth it though. I don't like him well enough anymore to defile my principles for him. He's like the evil ex who keeps saying he wants me back, but won't stop abusing and harassing. I didn't opt for that kind of treatment, so I told him to fuck off this morning. And I am glad I did.

My Most Important Post, Part 2

 I said I was going to do it, well here it is...

ICE and Trump vs. Obama

By total raw numbers of formal deportations and removals, the Obama administration used ICE to carry out significantly more deportations than Trump's first term, though daily enforcement rates and interior arrests have surged sharply during Trump's second term. [1, 2, 3]

Total Deportation Numbers

Barack Obama (8 years): Oversaw approximately 3.1 million formal ICE removals across two terms, peaking at over 407,000 in fiscal year 2012. [1]
Donald Trump (First Term, 4 years): Recorded fewer than 932,000 total ICE deportations, with a peak of about 269,000 in 2019. [1]
Donald Trump (Second Term): Enforcement and daily removal averages have accelerated past previous highs (averaging over 1,000 to nearly 1,200 per day in 2025–2026), though total cumulative numbers remain below Obama's multi-year totals. [1, 2]

Enforcement Strategy and Differences

Obama Administration: Focused heavily on individuals with criminal records or those intercepted near the border recently, earning him the label "deporter-in-chief" from some immigrant rights groups due to the high overall volume. [1, 2]
Trump Administration: Focused on a wider, more aggressive net of interior enforcement, high-profile workplace and community raids, and broadening the scope of targets regardless of criminal history. [1, 2, 3]
Detention and Custody: According to reports outlined by DW, the rate of individuals detained and the number of deaths in ICE custody have risen significantly higher during Trump's terms compared to the Obama administration due to longer detention lengths and higher daily counts. [1]

One thing I always hear from leftists is this thing about due process for illegals. That seems to be the only time (and I do mean the ONLY time) leftists care about due process. They say Obama gave fair court hearings to illegals, even though we, as Americans, do not owe illegals anything. But they say Trump never gives any due process to illegals.

Here's what I found about Obama...

Yes, the Obama administration used both formal immigration court proceedings with due process and rapid administrative removals (such as expedited removal and reinstatement of prior orders) that bypassed an immigration judge. [1, 2, 3]

Immigration Courts and Formal Deportations

Formal hearings: The administration processed roughly 3 million formal deportations through the executive immigration court system.
Prioritizing criminals: Official policy directed enforcement resources toward public safety threats, serious criminals, and recent border crossers. Individuals in standard removal proceedings had the opportunity to present their cases before an immigration judge. [1, 2, 3]

Expedited and Administrative Removals

Non-judicial removals: A significant share of removals during the Obama administration—estimated by analysts and advocacy groups to be around 70% to 75% by 2012—did not involve a formal hearing before a judge. [1, 2]
Legal mechanisms: These relied on established legal tools like expedited removal (fast-track deportations near the border) and the reinstatement of prior deportation orders, which limit standard court hearings. [1, 2]
Criticism: Civil rights organizations like the American Civil Liberties Union (ACLU) criticized these rapid removal practices, arguing that expanding fast-track authorities undermined adequate due process protections for individuals swept up in the interior or at the border. [1]

And this about Trump...

President Donald Trump's administration sought to fast-track deportations and bypass standard immigration hearings, arguing that undocumented immigrants do not possess the same due process rights as citizens. [1, 2]

The Legal Framework and Challenges

Constitutional Protections: The U.S. Constitution's Fifth Amendment guarantees due process rights to "any person" on U.S. soil, regardless of legal immigration status. [1, 2]
Expedited Removals: The administration expanded expedited removal policies to deport certain individuals rapidly without a standard hearing before an immigration judge. [1]
The Alien Enemies Act: The administration attempted to use the historic Alien Enemies Act to execute fast-track mass deportations, which led to major legal battles. [1, 2]

Court Interventions

Supreme Court Rulings: Federal courts and the Supreme Court repeatedly intervened, ruling that even individuals targeted for removal or detained under emergency authorities are still legally entitled to basic notice and an opportunity to challenge their deportation. [1, 2]
Judicial Blocks: Civil rights organizations like the American Civil Liberties Union (ACLU) successfully challenged and blocked several sweeping attempts by the administration to completely bypass removal hearings, with courts affirming that due process requirements remain mandatory. [1, 2]

But do illegals really have a right to due process? Well, according to what I found, they do. But there are limitations...

Yes, undocumented immigrants inside the United States are legally entitled to due process protections under the U.S. Constitution. [1, 2]

Constitutional Basis

The Fifth Amendment states that the government cannot deprive any "person"—not just a citizen—of life, liberty, or property without due process of law. The U.S. Supreme Court has repeatedly ruled that this protection covers every person physically present within the country's borders. You can read the official analysis of these protections via the U.S. Constitution Annotated. [1, 2, 3, 4]

What Due Process Means

During formal removal or deportation proceedings, due process guarantees non-citizens basic procedural rights:

Notice: Receiving a formal document that explains the charges and reasons for deportation.
Hearing: The right to have a case heard before an immigration judge.
Defense: The chance to present evidence, bring witnesses, and reply to government claims.
Counsel: The right to hire a private lawyer, though the government does not provide a free attorney. [1, 2, 3, 4]

Important Limits

Civil Law: Immigration violations are civil matters rather than criminal offenses. Because of this distinction, immigrants do not receive a government-paid public defender if they cannot afford a lawyer. [1]
Fast-Track Rules: Congress allows "expedited removal" for certain individuals who are caught at the border or who entered very recently, which bypasses standard court hearings in specific situations. [1, 2]
You can read more about current legal challenges and updates from the American Immigration Council. [1]

However, I can see why Trump is also using the fast-track rules. It's because of Biden. Biden allowed far too many illegals to cross our borders during his term. This is the part leftists just don't seem to understand. They think Trump is deporting illegals for shits and giggles. Or because they think he's "racist" and "xenophobic". But that's not the case at all. For example, I remember one person crossing the border under Biden's admin. He was a Pakistani man. He came into this country, it was believed, to cause trouble. He said something to the effect of "Americans don't know me now, but they soon will know me!" Which sounded like a threat! He even said it with this look of hatred in his eyes. That's the reason I support ICE. My priorities are the victims, and potential victims. Here's a few...

Those are the faces of Americans who were killed by illegal immigrants. Many died due to Biden's soft-on-crime laws. Biden was such a dumbass, he gave more respect to the criminals than to the victims. At least Trump respects the victims. These are some of the most well-documented victims of illegal immigrants...

I pray every day for our country. Actually, I am not too scared now, but I will be when Trump gets out of office. I'm voting for JD Vance then, if he runs. I sure as Hell don't want AOC as president! She's too dumb to run a country. She didn't even know what a garbage disposal is. But you know the leftists. They'll vote for her anyway. They think she's the second coming of Einstein. That's a thing that I've noticed is common among leftists. They think anyone who agrees with them are intelligent, well-educated people. And those who disagree with them are uneducated people. That's why I don't give a shit if a leftist thinks I'm intellectually challenged, or whatever they call it now. Besides, they're the ones who think men can magically become women, and vice-versa, while the rest of us have known for millennia that no mammal can change genders.

In all of nature, the number of transgender mammals and birds can be counted on the fingers of one hand. Yes, I have actually seen it. I once saw a cardinal that had coloring of both a male and female. Here's an example of that...

And have you ever seen a female lion with a mane? It's caused by a hormonal imbalance...

These don't happen in nature nearly as much as it does in the human world. And I don't buy the conception that there are more trans people now because they are more accepted. If that were really the case, then why have trans people been around for hundreds of years? Leftists always say that. So, why is that? That more proves that transgender today is a social miasma, brought on by leftists. I think it has a lot to do with big pharma and weak men not wanting to commit to the patriarchy.

I saw a video last night about Ellen Paige, who named herself "Elliot Page". She's now demanding we all see her as a biological man. The problem is, we never will. She still has a lot of girlish qualities. And those who watched her in The Odyssey said she still runs like a woman. Well, her reasons for yearning to change into a male are some of the stupidest reasons I've ever heard. She said she just did it because she was tired of male fans stalking and ogling her. Well, she was once so cute. Many women would have killed to look like her! Instead of believing she'd be happier disguised as a man, she should have become a better role-model for young girls. But this pretty well proves people like her transition for only one reason; insecurity. Not body dysmorphia, just plain and simple insecurity. I see it in Ellen's eyes. She's definitely NOT happy with her life now.